Solitary Contentment to a Point. . .

So lately I've really been feeling like being alone. I think we all get like that from time to time. It's cool to hang out with friends sometimes, but it's also a very good thing to spend time with yourself. So many people don't understand that, but it's alright. I have one friend who I will refer to as "Vanity", who thinks that if I don't want to deal with her, then I must be either mad at her, or depressed. So any time I get in a mood where I wanna be all by my lonesome, I get voicemails from Vanity that go like this: "Hiiiiiiiii, Shatira, I hope you're well. you know you can talk to me, I hope you feel better soon." When in truth, I'm not sick, I'm watching a good movie, wearing a mint julep facial mask and eating ice cream. Or writing, or reading, or listening to music, or God knows what else. . .you get the point.

I think that if you constantly have the need to be around other people, then you have issues within yourself. Get to know yourself a little, you might be surprised what you learn.

I need my quality time with myself to gather my thoughts. I can honestly say i enjoy my own company. However, I got a little rude awakening yesterday about my personal down time.

My girl, my ace, my best friend who I have known damn near my whole life needed me. She had been calling since last Tuesday, but i kept putting off calling her. I was thinking it was something not important, but I was wrong. She called last night and had gone through one hell of an ordeal. I couldn't believe it when she told me. She was cool, but I know she was very hurt that I wasn't there for her. She has two other close friends, but they didn't support her in that, "I might not agree, but I love you" sort of way you need your girls to come through with.

So, my point in all of this is that even though it's cool to be by myself, it's also important to still be concerned about my friends. It only takes a few minutes to call and check up. For no good reason, I wasn't there for her, and she's been pretty good about coming through for me, so I need to be just as mindful of her situations.

Ahh,new revelation, the journey continues. . .