The Gratitude Diaries: Part I: Alignment

ALIGNMENT: The act of moving of being adjusted proper relationships or orientations.

As I delve towards the life that I want to have, I am realizing that the Universe has placed some wonderful people in my life. I have always met people from different walks of life, and sometimes I wondered why these people were so different from me, yet so necessary in my life. I have friends and acquaintances all over the world, and I marvel at the awesome things they are doing in there lives. All my life I have been a magnet for successful and intriguing people.

Yesterday, while at work, I was thinking about my Facebook friends list and the various careers and expertise my friends have. How lucky am I that once I am in the place that I want to be in, I already have a network of accountants, journalists, educators, stylists, and just all around fantastic people to support me?

The only thing that world is waiting for is me! It’s up to me to keep striving for my destiny.

At the very least, I have people in my life who will make wonderful characters in some of the greatest stories I have yet to write.

I feel better than I have felt in a very long time.

The Secret, The Breakthrough, The Future

I've been in some dark places as of lately. September was a hard month for me. There was a point where I honestly felt like I would not see October. I felt useless, and not as empowered as I have felt in the past. There were so many tears, so many sleepless night, overeating, and all around drear. I went to my friend's party, and was a total downer. I made a bold decision about my relationship, and although at the time I was pretty sure it was what I wanted,I was still having a hard time dealing. A few nights ago, I awoke at 3am, with a heavy heart. I felt myself drifting into despair, and wondering what was the point of it all. I noticed on twitter that a friend was still up, so I called him and vented. I should have done it so much sooner. I had a talk with one of my good friends, and he encouraged me to start living in the moment, regardless of what others think. He said that when you feel like you have nothing else, you have one thing: TOMORROW. And then, he urged me to read The Secret.

I have heard of the book, the Law of Attraction, and everything that comes along with the theory. To be honest, I wrote it off as an attempt to sell a dream. But at the point that i was talking to him, I realized that I was at a new low, I was really feeling like things could never get better, and that changing my situation was hopeless. So, if this guy, who knows me better than anyone else, and totally comes across as this tough guy, was telling me to read this book, what did I have to lose? I got the book and started reading it a few hours later on my way to work.

Whoa...I am realizing that there is so much in the power of our words. I mean, we can talk all the negative things that we want, and all we are doing is putting that into the Universe. The version of the book I have has 206 pages, and I am already halfway finished. I should have read it years ago. I had girlfriends who read it, and praised it, yet I still dismissed it. So now, I am reading it, and recognizing lessons.

So much of what we do is in our thoughts, it's our feelings. Ever since I started reading, I have been changing my thoughts, I'm calling it "stinking thinking". Corny, yes, but effective. Every time I think about something bad, or negative, I remind myself that I have to let go of that stinking thinking. I'm visualizing all of the things that I want. The Secret's official website has a blank check you can download and fill out, and then visualize yourself receiving that amount. Issues that I struggle with (finances, weight, depression), are battles of the mind.

These principles aren't new, Christians, Buddhists,and other religions will recognize these ideas from their doctrines, which attests to the longevity of the secret.

It's only been a few days since I started reading, and changing my thinking, but I already see a change. Today, on the way home from the grocery store, there was an inexplicable joy in my heart. I can't explain it, but there was a calmness that I haven't felt in years. And I was smiling. I plan on pushing forward.